So I tought of a little update......
So like I finally started to work half September (graduated in June) and was a bit hyped at the idea to start working finally earning money and shit.
Offcourse at the beginning I was still thinking alot at the girl that I fell in love with, but after going out with my friends, meeting other people or just having a blast with my friends in combination with my work offcourse and the fact that I made promotion in about a month made me gradually and slowly forgetting about her, the contact between us faded as well and in the end faded out.
For me i felt like I was over her, I didn't think about her, I didn't feel shit etc I tought cool i'm over her........
So two weeks ago my parents took vacation and went to Bosnia for the holidays I stayed here in Belgium I couldn't take leave cuz I started working and had no right for taking leave now.
It was sunday they 30th of December, me and a friend where chilling here at my house waiting for our other friend to stop working so we could plan new years eve and the amount of alcohol to buy, all of a sudden I get the a message on my phone, i picked up the phone thinking it was my friend to say "hey i finshed work and am on my way" When I opened the messages box i kinda frooze when I saw the name of the messenger, it was her of all the people it was her all things were rushing trough my head, we hadn't hear from each other for like two months or more i mean WTF?
Anyway she asked what i was doing and apparantly she and my niece were with my parents etc blabla the usual stuff, anyway I choose not to react, five minutes later my phone rings, I see who calls suprise it's the telephone of my parents in Bosnia I pick up so I talk to my parents, my niece and eventually her, and when I talked it was then after all those months, after hearing her voice again it fucking hit me again, it unbelievable fucking hit me again, I realised how much I missed her omg I just couldn't believe it all fucking over again.
But I finally for the first time ever I heard finally a doubt in her voice, finally I knew she wasn't sure.
So we talked a bit and she asked a little about my personal life etc....
It's Monday evening 31st of December my and my friends were at mine house 3 bottles of strong alcohol, beer, stuff to eat and a good amount of loud music with speakers that make the whole block shake with each bass effect hehehehe
Again a text message this time I was prepared I knew who it was she again asking what I was doing, I wrote back what I was doing with the question what she was doing, She answered back that she and her best friend (my niece) were with my parents celebrating newyear together, I expected something like that but it was the last sentence that made it intrested, in the last sentence she wrote back "The only person that should be here is you, to make it perfect"
Anyway this time I knew it she was thinking of getting together with me but still the doubt, anyway a hour after midnight me and friends partyng wildly strangely no one didn't call the police the amount of noise was lol outrageous lol but wtv good neigbours lol.
my phone rings I knew it were my parents to wish me a happy newyear and it was after them my niece and lastly she.
She wished me a happy new year, and now we talked moore again asking about my personal life I now knew she was doubting she herself didn't knew what she wanted I was about to say "So what know, you wan't to give it a chance" and all that shit but no I wanted to think about it to think very good and hard about all think it over.
So two days later my parents get back and we talked how their vacation was and shit not much and shit but apparantly she (the girl I was in love with) told my mother if she just gave birth moore sooner to me so in other words I was older it would work lol but still now she was doubting........not sure what to do.....
So here I am now again thinking about her, and honestly I don't know what to fucking do, would it be worth it?
The age difference me 22 she 26, the distance just i don't fucking know, I know this summer I'm going to have to do something.....
