Ah, good point Viper. My fuckedupness, as you so nicely put it, is something I am proud of... but why?
Well, you already said why "pride in being individualistic." I've never felt I should "fit-in" or "go with the flow." In video games, I'd much rather find things my own way, than be stuck with an unchangeable, and quite narrow plot. However, those can be fun, it all depends on the game, of course. In NWN for example, I usually fuck myself over in every game I play, whether it is because I have perfectionistic tendencies or otherwise, it is simply a part of my personality. I want to explore and do everything, and this often leads me to finding every fucking bug the module has, and screws me over in the end, but hey, I can't help it! I take pride in being individualistic, because I like who I am and almost always have. There are various people out there, unwilling to accept me for the way I am, and honestly, it's tough shit for them.
Adaptation is compromise.
Compromise is settling for less.
There's parts of me that want to be radical and out there, and there's also a side of me that probably hates every living thing, and it shows from time to time, especially in some of my poetry, but, that side of me has only grown weaker and less ferocious over time. I suspect I have less to be angry about, and more reasons to be blissful, and all in all, I'll still love being as self-styled and individualistic as possible, but would prefer a more normal-like life, over such craziness and chaos.
You can wonder why I'm so willing to open myself up as much as I do to strangers, and people over the internet, and it's simply because, as I said, I like who I am, and whether anyone else does or does not, is their own problem.
I also don't mind spending an hour on a post, if that's the length of time it took me. I don't mind length, in fact, I love it! Though, longer posts usually only take me 5-10 minutes maybe.
"I've been reading pretty much every damn post in here since january. 3/4 of the forums are written by you hell..."
I like to talk, I like to rant, I like to rhamble, and I love forums. That's just me. =)
Now, do you really want to read all that? You probably don't even care! But hey, I don't care if you care, and nobody probably cares if I care if they care, so who cares, right? lol.
